二候至，萬物梳理毛羽。
你的翅膀，或許只有自己看不見。
All things
begin to preen.
Your wings—
perhaps
are the only ones
hidden from your sight.
穀雨二候｜體貼
是否越體貼的人，越難被別人體貼？
從不勉強你，卻總被你隨意勉強。也許你並非不體貼我，只是從未發現我的難過？
是否，因為我從未說出我需要？是否，不是我不說出口，是我從未察覺自己也需要？沒察覺我一直需要被你在乎，如我在乎你？
原來，最忽略自己，最勉強自己的是我。
可是，要我再也不體貼別人，也是一種勉強。
我只需要練習，把體貼自己養成一種習慣。好好放任自己，拒絕別人。別人不快樂，不是我的責任；而愛我的人，也會想讓我快樂。我會努力摸索，直到撰寫出自己的使用說明書，大方遞給你。
這是我更大的體貼。
·
Grain Rain · Second Phase
— Thoughtfulness
I keep shaping myself
to meet you—
only to find you moving on,
missing me.
Is it that
the more thoughtful I become—
the more I disappear
into my own thoughts?
Is it because
I have never spoken
what I need?
Or is it that
I have never known
that I, too, have needs?
Never noticing
how deeply I long
to be cared for—
as I have cared for you.
And how much have I rehearsed,
withheld—
without ever
revealing myself?
It turns out,
the one who overlooks me most,
who compels me most—
is myself.
Yet to force myself
out of thoughtfulness
is still
the same force.
I only need
to remain—
with you,
but not without myself.
To let myself be.
To say no
when I must.
Another’s uneasiness
is not mine to carry.
And those who care for me
would want me
to be at ease.
Until one day,
I can say it freely—
how I like to be considered.
So that
we may move easily
with one another.
And perhaps,
this is
true thoughtfulness.
攝於節氣之中｜穀雨 · 2022
概念發起｜吳星瑩
身體呈現｜吳星瑩
攝影｜江昱德
Captured within the time of Grain Rain · 2022
Concept & Model · Singing Wu
Photography · Jiang Yude
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